Happy Tuesday

Last night I wanted to be lazy and skip spin class. With some coaxing from my husband and some positive self talk I found myself on a bike at 5:30. What a great class, I am very glad I didn't miss it! One of my favourite instructors taught the class with an 80's theme. I forgot to wear my heart rate monitor but I am sure I had a good burn. I got plopped right in front of the fan and felt very special because I didn't sweat like pig for the first time ever.

My eating while not terrible was not stellar. Somehow I convinced myself that eating a hotdog in a pita was a good idea. I am not sure that hotdogs are ever a good idea. I mean, what is actually in a hotdog? No wait, I don't want to know.

A rough caloric breakdown of what I ate is as follows:
B-fast: oatmeal and protein powder = 300
1/2 pita with ham veggie, mayo and mustard = 170
1/2 pita with ham veggie, mayo and mustard = 170
1 jerky stick = 160
1 - 100 cal snack bar = 100
1/2 pita with ham veggie, mayo and mustard = 170
1/2 pita with hotdog = 225
1/2 pita with tbsp pb 1 tsp jam 200

Total approx calories = 1495

With that in mind I know I can do better today.

Today is the first day of my new journey!

For a while now I have been playing with my yo-yo. Since deciding to start a new journey I will be throwing that yo-yo away. For as long as I can remember I have been wanting to lose weight and was never happy with who I was as a person (inside or out).

With the support of amazing people I have started to realize some amazing goals. In the past two years I have learned to love myself, I have learned that I can do anything I want and that anything is possible. I have succeeded and I have failed in many different things. I have also learned failure is a part of life and without it you can't grow as a person.

My confession:
After competing in a fitness challenge I lost 29 lbs 10 weeks. I was and still am proud of all that I accomplished during that time. Since then, however, I have gained many of those pounds back. I will not view this weight gain as a failure. I am choosing to see it as something that I have learned. My highest weight was 215 lbs. My starting weight for the competition was 170. My lowest weight so far was 139. My current weight is 165.

I promise to myself that I will lose 2 lbs per week and that I will learn to love myself more everyday. I will not let any weight (gain or loss) determine who I am or how I feel. I when I am at my goal weight of 130 lbs I will learn to eat properly and never touch my yo-yo again.